If I blog without sharing a link, will anyone read it?

You know, like that tree falling in the forest all by its lonesome? I want to get back to writing somewhere, so I thought this would be a place to start. Last year pushed me to my limit. I’m now trying to recover from it as shudder at the 8,000+ emails in my inbox. At least 1,000 of those are from Boot Barn. Anyways, I took a break from deleting those to say hello!

I was so optimistic last year as I landed a great, stable job. The only thing was I had to go to night school at the same time & jump through a million hoops to get my teaching credential. I was fine (well, define fine) until about February (the city burning down didn’t help) when my hands decided they would be permanently frozen & my feet would start tingling. Anxiety has a pattern with me. I tend to ignore and dismiss all stressors in my life (“I’m fine! I got this! I’m cool as a cucumber—literally”) until my body sends me physical symptoms that send my health anxiety into turbo gear. I spiral which results in many doctors appointments (Do my feet look normal to you?!?! Oh, they do.) and a low dose of Lexapro.

But hey, I did it. And it has gotten so much easier, but it’s taken awhile to feel like myself again. I’m still playing catch up (with emails, social life, etc), but I feel on the upswing. Like maybe I can write a blog again. Maybe my disregulated nervous system can find peace? Here is to a new year that has more space in it for reading and napping (and writing for no audience in particular.)